Rain

It's raining.. AGAIN. Please please please tamau jam! Tapi confirm la jam kan today's Friday! Man, it's a good time to sleep. Tapi boss baru masuk department. Bosan betul la. Can someone please tell him to go back and sleep? Asyik tengok muka dia jer setiap hari. Boooooooring!

Tonight's Zahier's birthday party. Going with Joe. Tatau la what time we're going. But I'm so tired~ Maybe lepas kerja today nak lepak. KOT. I think so. Cuz it's Friday, so kalau balik awal sure jam kan. Hmmmm canne haaaaaaa..

I read Izmir's blog tadi. It's kinda cool. Lots of quotes and poetry. He wrote most of them, I think. One of the nicest blog I've ever read la. *bangga la tuh, Izmir*

I'm BOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOORED! Nak buat apa ha? Dah penat ah jalan jalan. Hmm hmm hmm hmm.. 45 more minutes!

Kenyang makan KFC tadi. BURPPPPP.

What am I gonna wear tonight? Tak fikir lagi. Actually, I did. But I still can't figure out what to wear tonight sbb takde baju dah! BOOOO!

Bored bored bored bored bored..

Irma sakit today :(

Dingggggggzz..

I AM STILL BORED.

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Raindrops keep falling on my head~ Kenapa kena hujan? WHYYY!?!

Make It Mine

Today I had to find transport back jugak. But luckily, I found it! Joe's gonna come pick me up here at 5pm, yeay! So nice of him. Kena belanja makan la these people who I always susahkan. Irma, Zahier, Joe, Amir, Faisal, Jue.. Hahahaha.. Tengok la canner. Kena kira budget dulu.

Just now kira budget with Irma. Looks like I won't have money to go shopping or anything, as I will only have around RM85 to spend :( Yg lain semua dah kena bayar a few stuffs like my laptop and my phone and transport and internet bill semua la. But takpe la, atleast I get to spend RM100 every week. This time kena suruh Amir simpan duit! Kalau tak confirm habis. Hahahaha. Oh, kena beli a few thing ah. Damnit betul betul kena budget ah! No shoes for me next month :(

Tomorrow Zahier is gonna throw a birthday party for him and his friend. They're gonna celebrate it at Duta Vista. Going with Joe, I don't think I can stay there long as I have to STUDY!!! Malas betul la. Saturday I'll be with Sarra the whoooole day. Study kat library. Insya-Allah I can jawab the paper on Monday. Shit la takut gila there are so many things to learn! Pastuh right after Monday punya paper I have to study for Biology pulak. I hope I'll pass. Hahahaha atleast it's better than failing right! Buruk betul sijil SPM saya :(

Can't wait to go back today. Well, actually takde la sangat. I'm very hyper today! Cukup tidur punya pasal. I'm not sleepy at all! Slept at 930pm smlm after watching Gossip Girl. Tonight I'm gonna watch One Tree Hill pulak :D 90210 dah tengok hari tuh. Malam nie nak tidur awal lagi la. Tomorrow Irma maybe takde, she's sick today. Ciaaaan dia. Now she's asleep. Hahahaha and I don't feel like sleeping at all OMG BESTNYERRRR!

4 more days! I miss you babat :(

Foolish Games

Today is a sucky day. I don't have transport to go back. Still trying to figure out how to go back. Irma came up with an idea, ikut Faisal balik sampai LRT Taman Paramount then take a cab. Maaaybe I'll do that. Kong asked me to take a bus to Putrajaya, go climbing with her and then she'll send me home cuz she's going back to Hartamas. Sounds so damn tempting, but can't afford it. Zahier said he can pick me up, but he's gonna come meet me up at 830pm in Subang and he's gonna bring me straight to Tropicana City Mall cuz he's friend's gonna perform there tonight. I can't go cuz I have to study! Sooooo yea, probably will be following Faisal back home. AAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAA sedih betul laaaaa :(

Bila laaa nak stop susahkan orang. Sigh.. I need a car.

Tick Tock

It's almost lunch time! Weeee! Still haven't decide where to eat yet. Maybe Qaseh or Kopitiam. But wherever it's gonna be pun I don't really care cuz I'm not eating. Not that hungry now la, just sleepy. I wanna sleep! Oh oh, saya kena samak laaa ada benda sentuh bahu saya tadi. Aaaaaaa!

Went out with Joe last night. Was so damn bored and I wasn't really feeling okay. So had a good talk with him and it made me feel better. Thanks, Joe! I think the reason why I feel so down lately is because Amir is not around. I don't know.. Some part of me misses him like hell. But the other part is asking me to NOT miss him because the missing hurts! Distance sucks, especially the time difference. Sigh.. It's okay, Dot.. 6 more days!

Kena study lepas nie aaa. I don't know jack shit man. This is fucking hard for me. Have to spend time with Sarra, gonna ask her to teach me. I FEEL SO STUPID. Hahahahaha. But what the hell, might as well just give it a try since I've already registered pun kan. Oh, I applied for Unisel last night for January intake. Tak tahu la dapat ker tak, ahahaha. It's in Kuala Selangor and from what I've heard, that place sucks! I have a friend there who's taking tesl, she said that place is like hell. Hmm.. Can I last 3 years in hell? Hmm..

Tak sabar nak gie wall climbing again! Best gilaaaa! I like the thrill to reach the top. Walaupun dah penat, but you'd still want to go to the top. BEST SANGAT, I LOVE IT!

Miss you, Babat :(

12 more minutes to go!

You Gotta Be

Went wallclimbing yesterday with Zahier, Muz, Put, Izyan and Amirul. Had an awesome time! Didn't know I could climb, hahahaha. Well, I'm not as good as Izyan la but atleast I can still climb. Hahahaha! Can't wait to go there again next weekend! I'm so gonna bring Amir when he comes back!

After wallclimbing, me and Zahier went to OU punya futsal court. Tak best la tempat tuh, it's pricey and the court is damn small compared to ones that I've been to la. But the boys complained the same thing, too. Oh, Lulu was there. She was the only girl who played and she scored 1 goal!

Today's a boring day at work, as always. Takde kerja sangat. Asyik complain kat Irma bosaaaaan. Hahahaha. I don't really feel like eating lunch today. No mood + I'm not that hungry. I'm sleepy! Padahal semalam I slept quite early!

Lapar la pulak. Cacat betul perut nie. Tunggu Amir online kat Skype, atleast can chat with him. Susah nyaaa boyfriend jauh nie :(

Malas nak fikir title.

I don't know why, but I feel so weird for these past few days. I feel.. empty. I feel sad. I feel alone. I feel useless. I feel unhappy. FUCK THIS SHIT!

Untouched

Today is a very boring day at work. Thank God I'm not that sleepy. Well, woke up this morning and went crazy cari transport to work. But Sarra sent me to work, alhamdulillah! She was late for class or something, hehehe.. THANKS BABE! Sayang Sarra sampai mati :D

I reached the office around 1115am. Hizam was being so nice to me! Nasib baik tak kena marah. He suggested I get a car soon. Well, kalau gaji banyak boleh ah. Boleh je beli kereta, but every month makan pasir ah. Hahahaha lagi kurus karang, nanti Amir dah tak sayang :(

Going to SS15 later with Azad, tumpang dia. Meeting up with Farah and Zainul later, Irma pun kot.. Irma said she's not sure yet sbb she ada exam today. Hopefully sempat la. After that we're going to OU to celebrate Adden's birthday! It's a saplaaaaaaaaais! So we have to be there early, around 8pm. I'm not gonna stay there for long, penat la.. Rasa nak balik terus tidur. Okay fine, tipu laa kalau terus tidur. Probably gonna watch a few episodes of Grey's Anatomy dulu then baru tidur :D

Amir texted me just now using Skype kot.. I felt like crying! Didn't realize I miss him so much. Waaaaa lama nyer lagi 2 weeks. But it's okay, got my movies and series to keep me company! Can't wait to get my salary. Seksa betul hidup sekarang. Boooo!

Gotta go now, nak kena hantar cheque. Bleeeeerrrggghhhhhhh~

Total Eclipse of the Heart

I'm sleepy, but I can't sleep. I don't know why. Still watching Grey's Anatomy now. Bosaaaaaaaaaaaan!

Had an awesome day at work today! I wasn't sleepy AT ALL! Jue was so damn hyper today. Took a lot of stupid pictures, but too lazy to upload them now. Maybe tomorrow after work.

I am addicted to MYMP's songs nowdays. They're so awesome! I love their songs, very soothing. Keeps me relaxed. I think I'm gonna bring my laptop to work tomorrow. I think. Then I can use it during lunch time, don't think I'll be going out for lunch. Maybe I can sit in my department and sleep or something. Or maybe watch a movie or something. Hehehehe.. Gonna ask Fauzi whether or not I can bring my laptop to work.

Tadi nak balik kereta Jue rosak, so we had to jumpstart her car.. in the rain! Faisal was the hero, all macho and shit. He's so nice la, helping us out just now. For some reason, he wrapped his head with a big ass towel and he looked kinda silly. Hahahahaha. But he's a nice guy. Always so helpful. That's why he's Tina!

I miss Amir. Baru third day. Kecoh siaaaaaaaaaaal. Hahahahaha 100 more days to go (malas nak kira, nanti lagi lambat). Balik aaaaa cepaaaaaaaaaaat! Your girlfriend misses you :(

She's So High~

I'm at work and I'm dead bored! Pinjam laptop Irma nak buat blog, sebab bosan sangat! I don't think my boss will be around today, he's still not in yet. Irma kena study. Hizam is.. staring at his pc screen as always. Everybody looks bored. Hahahaha..

I ate the most disgusting roti sardin EVER. Okay fine, it's not disgusting. It is not yummy at all. I can't wait for lunch time, nak tidur! Irma said she doesn't wanna go out today. So I'll be staying in with her! Yeaaaaaaaaaay!

Babat said he's gonna have a long drive to somewhere.. Mana eh? Tak ingat. But yea, can't wait to go home. I hope there will be a message from him on Facebook! Hahaha.. Today's the third day and it still feels like shit. But it's been better compared to Saturday. Gosh, I was so damn emotional on Saturday! Macam la dia pergi lama sangat. Fine, lama tuh lama la but nothing compared to Haizat punya lama kan! Sarra is so strong man, respect!

Gotta go now, sotong's here.

Time After Time

Blogs are for writing down your thoughts right? Same goes for Twitter or your status on Facebook. I think. But sometimes I feel guilty for updating too much status. Hahahaha. I is have the many the things to on my mind the.

When is Amir coming back? Why is 2 weeks a long time?

Why is Amir still asleep? It's supposed to be 0922 there.

I am watching Grey's Anatomy and I'm sleepy but I don't wanna sleep yet.

I am so lazy to go to work tomorrow.

Why is the sky blue?

Why are the people in my department so judgy and boring?

What do the people in my department do for fun?

How the hell am I gonna survive with no money?

I am hungry again.

I love Amir. I miss Amir. I wanna see Amir.




Okay, I'm going to sleep now.

Ugly Day

I am at Coffee Bean with Amar, teman dia study. I really don't feel like doing anything, I have no idea why. Maybe because I'M BROKE, or because I just don't feel like doing anything. Or maybe, because I miss Amir :( or MAYBE, just maaaaaaaaaybe.. becuz I am a lazy person. But I don't think I'm a lazy person. Am I?

Shit la I have to go through 2 whole weeks lagi waaaa lama nya plus God knows how many days Amir needs to recover from his jetlag. Hahahaha. Budak tuh mmg Babat!

I miss Sarra. I miss how close we used to be. Now masing masing are too busy with our own lives. Nak keluar susah, nak lepak or borak susah. Masing masing got our own problems. Waaaaaaa it's soooo hard :( I can't wait for her to finish her exams! I need to lepaaaaaak with her. Hehehehehe..

I am currently annoyed with a certain someone, but I really don't know how to tell that certain someone. I'm sure if I were to confront that certain someone, that certain someone is not gonna admit anything. So what's the point, right? Sigh.. I know I'm not perfect. I know sometimes I can be so damn annoying or people can't stand me or anything. But atleast I'm happy with what I have. I don't go and interfere with other people's problems. AAAAAAAAAA stress betul la.

Amin's leaving to Germany end of this month. Boo..

Lambat gilaaaa nak upload gambar kat Facebook. Stress nyerr..

Malas nak gie kerja tomorrow. But I'm looking forward to eat breakfast! Nasi lemak sedap :D

Had a short chat with Amir just now. Sounds like he's having fun! I'm so glad one of us is having fun. I'm bored almost all the time! Heee.. But I've been staying at home for the past 2 days and I can tell that Papa is verrrrryyy happy that I haven't been going out. Let's keep this good record for 2 weeks. Heee!

I miss Amir. I miss his kisses. I miss his smell. I miss his sleepy voice in the morning. *emotional mode ON*

Man, I feel so retarded.

You Got It All

Amir left this morning to LA with his family. I think this is the hardest goodbye compared to the others. Whenever he goes to work, I know that I can always text him or we can always chat or skype. But this time, he's gonna be busy for the next 2 weeks. I miss him already. I missed him the whole day, didn't even have to mood to do anything. But then again, staying at home the whole day drives me nuts, I called Zahier up and asked him out. So, we went to The Curve with Fiza, Joe, and Shaza.

I think I do need him. I need him in my life. For now, I can say that he's my everything. He's my friend. He's my bestfriend. He's my diary. He's my partner in crime. But the most important thing is, he's my boyfriend :)

I love everything about him. Okay, almost everything. I love his passion for music and flying and he's good at what he does. I love the look on his face when he wakes up in the morning. I love the fact that he's soooo manja with me. He's a very determine person. When he wants something, he'll do whatever it takes to get it. He's a very generous person. His heart is at the right place. I like the butterfly feeling in my stomach everytime he calls or everytime he says "baby, I dah sampai depan rumah you!". We do a lot of crazy stuffs together! I love every single moment of being with him. I love the tiny kisses he gives me when I'm asleep (okay, he thinks I was asleep but actually I wasn't, heee). He snores, but I don't care. I love it :) He looks so peaceful when he sleeps.

Overall, I love the person he is. Eventhough sometimes I'm afraid of him, but I like the fact that he has that effect on me. I'm so thankful that I have him in my life now. Like other couples, we went through ups and downs, but we managed to go through it all together.

I know it's a few days late but baby, happy 6 months anniversary :) I love you so much, sayang. Missing you..

Tell Me Where It Hurts

What is my day going to look like?
What will my tomorrow bring me?
If I had x-ray eyes, I could see inside
I wouldn’t have to predict the future

I wish that you would do with some talking
How else am I to know what you’re thinking?
If only people would say what it really was
What it really was
What it really was that they wanted

Tell me where it hurts
to hell with everybody else
All I care about is you and that's the truth
They don't love me; I can tell
But you do, so they can go to hell

Did they ever give you a reason
To believe in something different
If you’re looking for love, for what it's worth
I have plenty of it lying around here somewhere

If you are looking for disappointment
You can find it around any corner
In the middle of the night I hold on to you tight
So both of us can feel protected

Tell me where it hurts,
to hell with everybody else.
All I care about is you and that's the truth
they don't love me; yeah I can tell
but you do, so they can go to hell

I’ve been loved but I didn’t know how to feel it
And I’ve been adored but I don’t know if I ever believed it
I’ve been loved my whole life but I didn’t know how to take it
Until...

So tell me where it hurts
to hell with everybody else
All I care about is you and that's the truth
they don't love me, yeah I can tell
But you do, so they can go to hell
But you do, so they can go to hell

Tell me where it hurts
Tell me where it hurts
Tell me where it hurts now
Tell me where it hurts... 

The Climb

Slow day at work today. Everyone still cuti. I'm so damn bored. Amir's gonna be off to Delhi today (kot.. tak ingat). Bosan nyaaaa! I'm sleepy. I'm tired. I'm hungry. I'm broke. I'm BORED!

Went to Zahier's house smlm. Ada open house. Satay was so damn awesome man! I ate 10 :D Amir looked so damn cute in his new black shirt. Nak sepak laju laju muka dia sampai mati.

Blogging is actually very weird cuz I'm typing out whatever I'm thinking of right now.

There's always gonna be another mountain~

Boleh mati kebosanan.

Wild World

1. People who wear hijab are nice people.

- Hmm well, not so true. Most of them are, I think. But some of them still talks bad about people. Still hold hands with their boyfriends. Still wears tight clothes. I mean, you wear hijab because your religion says you have to wear it. But I don't see the point if you wear it and still doing all this bad things. But bottom line, it still comes back to as long as you mind your own business, then it's fine. AND you can't force someone to wear hijab because if you do, they'd be wearing for you, not for God.

2. People who take drugs and drink are bad people

- I don't think they are. I the things that they do are between them and God. If they are good to their family and friends, then they're fine. As long as they are nice to people and mind their own business, it's fine.

3. OD is normal for people who drink.

- I don't think so. For first timers, it is normal because they don't know their limits yet. But if you purposely drink until you overdosed, then that is NOT normal. Unless if you have problems and you're trying to drink them away. But you see, problems are always gonna be there until you settle them. Even if you overdosed for 5 days straight, your problems are NOT going to get solved. Oh, girls, if you're planning to get like reeeeeally drunk, make sure you wear pants :)

4. There's nothing wrong in partying.

- Yeap, I agree. But if you party with random strangers, and get wasted and check in some cheap motel with a stranger, then that is totally wrong. But if you wanna party with people you know and trust, then that's okay because you know that you are in good hands :) And if you're planning to go on a party and get high, make sure you bring your own money to get your stuffs. Don't borrow people's money and act like you forgot all about it. And if you wanna have a party at a club, make sure you have enough money to buy the booze, not ask for money from someone you just met. Things might get reeeeally messy if you don't pay them back. Who knows they might just come banging on your door and ask you to pay them back.


5. People learn from their mistakes.

- Correcto. It's something that you HAVE to do after you've done something wrong. Learn from your mistakes. Don't repeat them ever again. Be a better person. I know someone who made a mistake. He got punished really bad for it. But now he's a much better person. He learned from his mistakes. He doesn't repeat them anymore and I respect him for that. But others, well let's just say they never learn. Keep on doing it. Orang kata tak serik serik la kan.

6. People don't change for the better, they change for the worse.

- Hmm, I don't agree with that. You have two options, either to be better or to be worse than you already are. Ones with brains would choose to change for the better. Why would you wanna be worse than you already are?

7. If you have a problem with someone, it's better to say tell them face to face other than posting it on Myspace or Facebook or Friendster or whatnot.

- I agree and disagree. Depends on people. If the person who you have a problem with is the type who sits and listen, the it's okay because you know whatever you say to her will actually stick in their brains. But if the person cries or babble when you're talking to them or talk on the phone while you're waiting for their response, then I don't think talking face to face would be such a good idea.

8. Karma says, "What goes around comes around".

- True. Karma has a way of getting to you when you least expects it. If you believe in karma, you wouldn't do things to people. You would treat people like how you want to be treated. Dont simply say you believe in karma just because it's something cool to say. Karma says what goes around comes around. People who believe in karma they treat people like how they wanna be treated. Some people just like to say that they believe in karma, but the truth is they don’t. Some might believe in it just becuz other people believe in it but they don’t actually know jack about karma. If a person believes in karma, they wouldn’t cheat on their boyfriend or girlfriend becuz they know it’s wrong and karma WILL catch up on them (kalau betul they believe in karma la). They wouldn’t treat the person they love like a slave, asking them to do this and that. They wouldn’t throw things at their loved one when they’re angry. They wouldn’t talk about their bestfriends behind their backs. They wouldn’t create false stories about other people just to feel good about themselves. To all ‘karma believers’, let me tell you you the REAL meaning of karma. Karma is a sum of all that an individual has done, is currently doing and will do. Karma is not about retribution, vengeance, punishment or reward, karma simply deals with what is. The effects of all deeds actively create past, present and future experiences, thus making one responsible for one's own life, and the pain and joy it brings to others. So, do you really believe in karma?


9. Say what you mean. Mean what you say.

- Some people only know how to say things, but they don't really mean. In other words, 'talk cock no action' or 'cakap tak serupa bikin'.

10. Once a liar, always a liar

- Why do you think people lie? Is because they have something to hide? Or they lie so that they'd feel good about themselves? Or they wanna get out of a difficult situation? I think there are a lot of reasons to lie. You lie because you don't wanna hurt other people's feelings. You lie because you're afraid if the truth comes out, people are gonna hate you. You lie because you wanna feel good about yourself. You lie because you wanna cover something up. A lot of reasons. BUT if you lie to a person when the proof is already right in front of their eyes, then you can proudly call yourself an idiot.

Toxic

Fake people really annoys me. There are actually a lot of types of fake people.

Some of them are ones who will act nice in front of you but will bitch about you behind your back.

Some of them compliments other people just to get close to them. They'd go like, "OMG babe, lawa gila rambut you!", "Babe, you kurus la I jealous gila!", "Babe, kenapa you lawa sangat nie, I rasa malu la nak jalan sebelah you!". Makes me wanna puke.

Some of them even create stories about themselves just so that people will look up to them. Gila ah. Psycho nak mampos.

Some of them will pretend like they're rich and all that tapi sebenarnya takde duit pun.

Some of them try to act cute so that they will attract other people's attention. Tapi tak cute pun. Aaaaa geli la.

There are a lot of things I wanna say about fake people, but seriously takde mood ah now. Geli geli geli!!

Tears Don't Fall

This is so hard. Missing someone but you can't do anything about it. It hurts as hell to know that the reason why you can't be together is not because you don't have feelings towards one another, but it's because of certain things that is unavoidable. A very strong reason to not be together but still involves feelings. It sucks knowing that both people can't meet each other's expectations. It hurts knowing that you could try harder but somehow one of you don't see the point to carry on with it anymore. Love hurts, everybody knows that. But I guess it's ta risk you have to take to be happy. If you don't try, you wouldn't know what's the outcome of it, right?

BLEEEERRRRRGGGGGHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH~

Everything I'm Not

Please God, give me strength to go through all this.

Cry For You

I hate it when people take things for granted. I hate it when they don't appreciate things when they have it. I hate people who only likes to chase. Basically I hate ungrateful people.

I don't fucking understand. They said they care. But I was at home lying on my bed with no food, they didn't even come up and check up on me. Or atleast send someone to check up on me. But when I wanna go to World Stage, they said they care cuz I'm sick and they don't want me to get worse. WHATEVER. This is fucking unfair.